"the entire sum of existence is the magic of being
needed by just one other person"
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Currently reading...

Rule of Four
"Freakonomics" - Steven D. Levitt and Stephen J. Dubner
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Currently Listening To...

Rihanna - A Girl Like Me
Rihanna - A Girl Like Me
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Last Movie I Saw...

Superman Returns
Superman Returns
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Say Something
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disclaimer : first, anything seen or read here cannot and will not be held against me in any way. second, you should here if you are a friend or unless you are a blog surfer here killing time. and if you are you're really wasting your time reading a blog of a person you don't know, see right there, that's 3 seconds you aren't going to get back.
now, i'm currently a freshman/sophmore at santa clara university. that has become my home away from home, but then again, i also consider melbourne my home away from home. i love being surrounded by people, even if there's no talking involved. i thank my lucky stars everyday for my friends, my singapore soulmates, my melbourne mates and of course my santa clara family. i have 16 friends which i would do almost anything in the world for and all of them are spread out between these 3 countries. which sometimes makes me sad but then there are the wonders of the internet and mediaring which everyone should use instead of skype *shameless advertising here*
i love music. my ipod is almost my lifeline. television is the source of everything good in my world. i love reading too, although i may not look the type. so basically music, books and television are my life.


Tuesday, February 20, 2007

i know i haven't written here in awhile...but i will be starting this up again...

cause i miss you guys, and i feel entirely too cut off from everyone...

ak was here at 10:17 PM`

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Saturday, December 30, 2006

this will be started again...soon.

ak was here at 10:42 PM`

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

hello again...
recently i've been feeling what can only be discribed as 'zen'...

i'm losing my place again in my life,
sometimes i just feel like i'm drifting almost,
from class to class
meeting to meeting
meal to meal
and then back to bed.

i don't know why this is happening, cause frankly i don't know what 'this' is...

i feel like i'm following the footsteps of someonelse on a well worn path,
that i'm retracing almost i think, re-living?
i just know that this isn't me, and i don't know what to do.

i think i might just have to take a break from this.
start one of those word docs on my com instead.
cause i feel like a baby whining like this, but i can't help it.

ak was here at 11:28 PM`

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

i know i haven't blogger in a long time, but this week has been crazy and some...

i have finally gotten a minute to myself, yes.

anyway i have a thought that i just had to write down...
i think i should definately delete this the mintue i write this but then again, maybe i won't...

i just realised how much of romantic i really am,
don;t get me wrong, seeing couples making out and being overly touchy feeling makes me nauseous,
my i want to be swept off my feet,
i want the big gesture,
i want the romeo and juliet conflict (not the ending though)
i want to be like the little mermaid and the prince seperated by their worlds but fall in love regardless,
i want my prince charming...

and perhaps it's these high expectations,
and extreme circumstances that is needed to catch my attention...
i blame disney.

i don't think i have commitment phobia
that was the theory for the longest time...

the thing is, i think i don't want to fall in love,
i want the love that hits you,
full on. you wake up one day and you realise what you wanted was in front of you all the long.

i've thought i was in love 3 times.
all 3 times, i stood right at the edge (corny i know), but that's what it felt like
and i never jumped off the cliff.
i don't know why.
i guess the potential gain never outweighed the risk.
maybe i do have a phobia of commitment.

now i'm babbling.
i don't know what i'm talking about now.
i forgot what my point was.
i had one i swear, i just don't know what it is anymore.

ak was here at 2:13 AM`

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

junk. andy lost ):

ak was here at 8:11 PM`

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so...i'm suppose to be studying for my driving theory test...
but as my mummy was flipping through the channels she found
THE FINALS OF THE US OPEN!!!! AND ANDY RODDICK IS IN IT!!

ahhhh....roddick is still so hottt (:
i've been really lucky
when i was in bangkok i managed to catch the quarter finals where roddick won (:
then last last i managed to catch the semifinals where roddick won!!
and now i get to see the finals!!!!

it's fate i tell you...i mean to catch three important matches which roddick is in, and me a girl that laothes any type of sports...

it's fate. (:

he's playing world no. 1 federer...please let roddick win (:

ak was here at 3:35 PM`

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back from hawaii and in california (:

hawaii was absolutely perfect, and pictures will come later...
but because today is the 10th of sept (it still is over here!!!)

happy birthday sanne!!!!!
much much love, all the way over here (:

ak was here at 12:01 AM`

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Friday, September 01, 2006

i'm in japan right now, a 4 hour lay over, fun.

anyway i just realised that today is teacher's day, so...
happy teacher's day to all my teachers, especially a few who are very special to my heart...

happy teacher's day lao shi (sec 3 + 4),
you are one of the most patient teachers i know. i'm sorry i always make you tu xue, but thank you for sticking it out. with you, i did the impossible i got a B4 for chinese (:

happy teacher's day all the other lao shis i've ever had (pri 1 - sec 2),
without fail every year my mum would get a call from one of you, but thank you for not giving up on me, although i slowly gave up on chinese. sorry for not doing writing homework, cheating on ting xie and mo xie. missing class by hiding in the sick bay. but thank you for everything.

mr lim (my chinese tutor),
you are probably the reason i didn't fail miserably at chinese. you pushed me all the way from pri 4. you believed that i could do it. you teased me about my american accented chinese words but gave me the earring stickers when i did good. i don't know where you are now, but i'm greatly in your debt for all the years of dedication and relentless determination you gave me to help me achieve my fullest potential. one of the happiest moments i have ever had is being able to tell you that i had gotten a B4 for my o'levels, knowing that all our hard work had paid off. you are my favourite teacher ever, tutor or otherwise, and i miss you.

mrs betty lee,
you were the first teacher that talked to me like and equal not like a student to be talked down to. and i'll always appreciate that. you helped me to see through the high school stereotypes and were the first one to make me see that there was more to life than clicks and popularity.

finally...
miss goh,
i miss you so much. i still remember on our sec 4 founder's day you refused to take a picture with us, but you said that WHEN we come back the next year with our As in chemistry you would take the picture with us. but i didn't come back. and this year when i heard you were in the hospital i wanted to send you flowers and come visit you, but i put it off thinking i had more time, that you'ld still be there. but i was wrong, that is something i will always regret. i hope you knew how much you meant to me, how you pushed me to be good at a subject that i was failing in. you helped me get over my fear of a bunsen burner, a great feat. i miss you, all i can do is believe that you knew how much a appreciate what you did for us, and how brave i think you are. i hope you have found the peace you deserve, and i hope there are no noisy people up there who turn on their washing machines at night while everyone is trying to sleep.

i guess this is my depressing post, or more reminescing post maybe. i just miss the simplicity of having one set. one set of teachers, one set of friends, one life.

ak was here at 1:57 AM`

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Thursday, August 31, 2006

i guess it's time for my usual depressing post about leaving home, but somehow i can't bring myself to.

instead here are some unforgettable quotes from my summer buddies...

kj: so when do you get to come back again?
me: december
kj: and you get another 3 months of hols right?
me: wah??

me, sanne, veron and bee lay our towels on the beach.
i lay down on my towel and start tanning, while the rest are still standing around.
me: lie down la
s+v+b: but i have to change.
me: wah?!
they disappear to change and by the time they come back, i'm chao ta.

at the zoo,
lion: ROARRRRRRRRRR!
mel (point to a little merecat in the cage beside the lion) : did that just roar?

outside of zouk, i pass justin my waterbottle and justin takes a gulp.
justin: what was that?!?
me: vodka
j: mixed with...
me: nothing
j: what!!
me: hahahhahaha
j: it's not funny, i was really thirsty.

good times, good times. to one of the best summers of my life. and to the summers that will be even better, when i have my licence. WE'RE GONNA DRIVE TO PENANG! WHEEEEE!

on a 'depressing note':
i wish i was leaving later cause,

my cousin + chris is working this weekend for $9/hour and i really need that kind of money

westlife are coming to singapore!!!! ahhhhhhhh on the 8th (i think) and i absolutely loooove them!

and most importantly, melon is coming back on her b'day, and i won't be here :( love you melon.

ak was here at 11:08 AM`

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