"the entire sum of existence is the magic of being
needed by just one other person"
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Rule of Four
"Freakonomics" - Steven D. Levitt and Stephen J. Dubner
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Currently Listening To...

Rihanna - A Girl Like Me
Rihanna - A Girl Like Me
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Superman Returns
Superman Returns
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now, i'm currently a freshman/sophmore at santa clara university. that has become my home away from home, but then again, i also consider melbourne my home away from home. i love being surrounded by people, even if there's no talking involved. i thank my lucky stars everyday for my friends, my singapore soulmates, my melbourne mates and of course my santa clara family. i have 16 friends which i would do almost anything in the world for and all of them are spread out between these 3 countries. which sometimes makes me sad but then there are the wonders of the internet and mediaring which everyone should use instead of skype *shameless advertising here*
i love music. my ipod is almost my lifeline. television is the source of everything good in my world. i love reading too, although i may not look the type. so basically music, books and television are my life.


Wednesday, August 31, 2005


over the sea and far away
she's waiting like an iceberg
waiting to change
but she's cold inside
she's wants to be...like the water
all the muscles tighten in her face
buries her soul in one embrace
they're one and the same
just like water
then the fire fades away
but most of everyday
is full of tired excuses
but it's too hard to say
i wish it were simple
but we given up easily
you're close enough to see that
you're on the other side of the world...to me
on comes the panic light
holding with fingers and feelings alike
but the time has come...to move along
can you help me?
can you let me go?
and can you still love me...
when you can't see me anymore...

ak was here at 6:55 AM`

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i am officially no longer a 'metal-mouth'
hahahaha
it just feels weird...

ohoh i went queensway...with my mummy (:
and now i have new converse shoes
everyone say 'yay!'
hahahahahaha

ak was here at 6:28 AM`

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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

i added the pics from dinner on sunday at tao's
but it's under the 28th aug so scroll down to see them

ak was here at 11:42 AM`

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i'm not going penang....but i'm leaving on the 10th....

at least i have this last weekend in singapore...

which is good...i get to see my girlies on friday...
we're going to mg for teacher's day
we get to see the teachers....
miss goh, lao shi, miss tan, mrs gan, mrs choo
we get to eat in our cherished canteen
malay store, red bowl store, yong tao foo, chicken rice
i'll get to spend some much disappearing time with the greatest friends i could ask for....
and that is worth not eating penang laksa, no lor bak, no beach....
really....

i'm not complaining...i made this choice...and this is it...

mel and sanne...
i miss you too soooo much
if i had my own plane i would fly there to see you guys one more time
no no...i'll fly you guys back (:
so we can go to secret recipies and see all our fuggly houses
so we can go to queenstown/queensway and walk up and down trying not to be cheated by indian men
so we can go to bc and american club
so we can go bowling
so we can go eat nasi lemak, laksa, and yong tao foo......
so many things...we'll do them in june
i promise (:
i love you guys
<3

ak was here at 9:02 AM`

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Monday, August 29, 2005

my new stationary...


all bought from big bookshop! i love big bookshop (:


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Sunday, August 28, 2005

i think....i think.......

i don't want to go to penang anymore...

i want to leave on the 12th...

just to stay here a little bit longer....

ak was here at 8:52 PM`

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you know sometimes when you're lying in bed
but you're not anywhere near tired or sleepy
so your mind just runs...
that's what just happened to me
and as usual that's never a good thing

i have 12 days left
12...not 12 weeks but days
i remember when i had 9 months till i had to leave
then it became 6 months
then 2 months
then 1 1/2 months
then 2 weeks
and now...my last sunday in 10months in s'pore as just come and gone
and i feel like i'm racing against time
or something like that

i need to pack...desperately
i've had 10 months to pack
but i'm no where near started
and thus no where near done
so when i was lying in my bed
thoughts running though my head
*that's from a song right?*
i had this incredible urge to pack
my heart is racing too fast if you know what i mean
so i know i won't be getting any sleep tonight

i......i don't know.....i think i made a horrible mistake

i'm off to pack
how do you fit 18 years into 2 bags?

ak was here at 1:29 PM`

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i found this somewhere and thought it was sweet
it's about younger days when the world wasn't so complicated
i edited it abit to be easier to understand
so here it is....

on monday it was my first day in school. you were the first person to talk to me. you even ate lunch with me. we have a lot in common. we talked about our favorite bands (a lot, of which, we both like) and tv shows we watch.

you're nice, maybe we can be friends.

***

tuesday you sat by me at lunch again. i found you waiting by my locker after school. you said you just got a brand new video game and asked if i wanted to check it out. i said sure. we headed to your house and played for awhile. you kicked my ass everytime.

it feels like i've known you forever.

***

wednesday was horrible. some big bully pushed me off the swing and i scraped my knee. everyone just stooed around me and laughed at the new kid. i was so embaressed, i was scared you would never talk to me again. i ran to the closest bathroom to cry, probably making a huge fool of myself in the process. some third day huh? you followed and sat down with me in the corner where my knees were pulled up to my chin and my head in my hands. i was expecting you make fun of me and call my a crybaby. but you didn't. instead, you hugged me. you hugged me and told me everything would be ok.

i might just have a crush on you.

***

by thursday, most people had forgotten what had happened. of course i recieved a few teasings here and there, but you were right by me all the way. your best friend, ryan, is in out art class. we had to pick out partner today and i was sure you were going to ask him. but you didn't. you aked me. i asked you why you hadn't picked ryan and you just laughed and said something about rather working with me.

i really like you.

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on friday you wondered if i would like to come over to your house for dinner. i said yes, how could i refuse! you smiled and told me to come over around 6.00. the day couldn't go by fast enough. then finally, the dismissal bell rang, and i swear i practically ran out of class. while i was waiting for my mum, you passed by. just smiling that beautiful smile. it totally fits you.

i must have annoyed my mum, asking her all day if it was time to go yet. i couldn't wait till 5.30 when we would leave for your house. i learnt how to read a clock that day...although i could only tell when it was 5.30.

i arrived at your house exactly 5 minutes to 6.00. my mum gratefully to be relieved of my 'are we there yet?'s. you were sitting outside and i couldn't help but smile. you jumped up, seeming very anxious about something.

"come on," you said, "if we wanna see it we have to hurry."

"see what?"

"you see."

you grabbed my hand and we ran all the way to the neighbourhood park. you lend us towards the palyground equipment. jumping onto the little bridge thingy you said, "come on up!" i obliged.

"what exactly are we doing?"

"we're going to watch the sunset, can't you tell?" you grinned goofily and i just laughed.

"beautiful isn't it?" you said, just randomly, after a few moments of silence.

"yeah it is."

you swung your arm around me, pulling me into you. not knowing what else to do, i moved closer.

you day my name and turn to look at me.

"y-yeah?" i don't know why the hell i'm stuttering. i'm probably nervous.

"hey," you said before kissing me softly. when we pulled away you were smiling wide.

"hi," i said back, my grin matching yours.

friday, i'm in love.

ak was here at 10:41 AM`

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Saturday, August 27, 2005


our teaaaaaaaaaa

ak was here at 11:36 AM`

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my girlies (:

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sarah and me

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after tao's we went to coffee connection for TEA

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sabs and her fruit cup...

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chris and me (:

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sabs pretty fruit cup and her rose tea...

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sarah and her creme brulee...

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my desert...creme brulee yummm

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again...you can see sarah's entree in the background...she likes it cause it;s so round hahaha

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my pretty entree (potato salad with fish roe and prawn)

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sarah.sabs

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tao's (: it's fusion food...

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Friday, August 26, 2005


i will not make the same mistakes that you did
i will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery
i will not break the way you did.
you fell so hard
i've learned the hard way
to never let it get that far

because of you
i never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side so i don't get hurt
because of you
i find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
because of you
i'm afraid

i lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out
i cannot cry
because you know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake
a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
my heart can't possibly break
when it wasn't even whole to start with

i watched you die
i heard you cry every night in your sleep
i was so young
you should have known better than to lean on me
you never thought of anyone else
you just saw your pain
and now i cry in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing

because of you
because of you

*kelly clarkson

ak was here at 10:53 AM`

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

i'm sooo happy!! (:
and mel might kill me *hope she doesn't* but i'm still soooo happy!!

I HAVE LAGUNA BEACH SEASON 2!!!!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! well not all lah cause it's still airing in us but the first 4 episodes!!
if you don't know what i'm talking about it;s okay!
i'm just super happy!!

ak was here at 10:20 PM`

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i have so many things coming up
i don't think i'll even have time to breath or pack
oh dearr

countdown time! i know it's dumb BUT bear with me or stop reading (:

6 days : i get my braces off!
7 days : going penang!
16 days : sanne's birthday (:
: i'm leaving s'pore
20 days : melon's birthday (:
: move into my home for the next 6 months
21 days : orientation
25 days : classes start

i just realised i'm leaving on sanne's birthday...and i'm moving into my dorm on mel's b'day! hahaha damn qiao! hope that brings me luck! (:

okayokay...i better go pack...ehhhh...what to bring ahh...

ak was here at 2:24 AM`

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

one was a confidant
someone to talk to
someone who somehow understood
the only one i could be serious with
and listened the best
late nights talking always left me feeling so...full
we are as different as night and day
but on some level you always understood

one was an older sibling
looking out for me like the one i never had
i want to thank you...
for the warnings, for the scoldings
somehow you always thought you had to take care of me
so thank you
for the care and concern
and even the teasing

one was the enigma
i never understood you
maybe i wasn't meant to
where would be the fun be if i did right
i could write pages and pages about you
and still come back to the simple point that
the moment's gone
we were both too smart to try...

something that could have been
but never should be...

'if i could, i would have left you feeling everything i was thinking'

ak was here at 11:37 PM`

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i want a golden ticket!

omg! i didn't know we could post pictures directly! don't need to rely on hello anymore! yayness! (:



ak was here at 3:46 AM`

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Monday, August 22, 2005

since i'm sick and germ infested hahaha
i have been 'banished' to my room so that i don't make others sick
(:
so right now i only have my computer, the lovely internet, the tv and my new best friend the tissue box to keep me company
the tissue box lets call it tissy is my new best friend
she goes everywhere with me
i think soon i'll blow my nose off but i'll still have tissy!
hahaha okay i'm bored now...
i'll go look for stuff to post.................

ak was here at 9:15 PM`

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i think...i think i might be falling sick
i think...i think i am sick...

i'm duped up on flu medicine
is duped even a word??
my brain is all fuzzy wuzzy...is that a word?
i think i should seriously go to sleep
i have the flu...i think
and i think i'm saying i think too much...
i think...nothing really....
ehhhhhhh......

random thought : i haven't started packing yet...how dead am i...

ahhhhhh........ahhhhh....ahhchooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

ak was here at 8:52 AM`

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Sunday, August 21, 2005

yesterday we went to eat seafood at jumbo seafood restuarant at the indoor stadium there
ohhhh yummyumm
we ordered tons of food...
chilli crab with fried man tou
black pepper crab
lobster salad *my favourite*
deep fried crayfish
oyster omelette
golden pheonix chicken
yeoh teow
hot and sour soup
salted fish fried rice....
ahhhh that;s all i can remember...
hahaha

the cutest 'lil boy made my day yesterday
a cute little german boy called charlie
he just walked over to our table and plopped *literally* himself onto my chair
he had this german race car book with him and started reading it to me
like i know german right??!!
haha
he was so cute
shared my chair with me throughout the whole meal
awwwww so cute right (:

ak was here at 6:04 AM`

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the brothers (older set) haha

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tze hern and aunty sally

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dad and me

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dad.christopher.tze hern

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aunty meg.jackie.uncle john

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dad and mum

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on the bridge

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the khor/khaw siblings

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my new friend...charlie!

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look at cute christopher!

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the two brothers

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jackie.brian.christopher.coke

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aunty sally and dad with mister lobster

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lobster salad! my favourite!

ak was here at 5:50 AM`

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mum, dad, aunty sally and brian waiting for a table

ak was here at 5:49 AM`

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brian in front of jum(bo)

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a stingray getting grilled!!

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drunken prawns wahahaha

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jumbo seafood!! (:

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christopher fell asleep on the way to...

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

see my new baby!!
oooh i'm so happy...
up to 5.1 megapixel image capture
3x optical zoom
2.5" LCD screen
32 MB internal flash memory
unlimited video recording
video recording in mpeg movie format!
ohohoh and a 1G memory card!!!
i'm a very happy girl (:

ak was here at 8:12 AM`

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my new baby...

ak was here at 8:10 AM`

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Friday, August 19, 2005

i just found the funniest site ever
hahaha
go see go see!!
http://studentssketchpad.blogspot.com
it's hard to explain it's just hahahaha
have fun! (:

ak was here at 8:33 PM`

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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

looking at your picture from when we first met
you gave me a smile that i could never forget
and nothing i could do could protect me from you that night

wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
the days would blend together 'cause we stayed up all night
yeah, you and i were everything, everything to me

all the doors are closing i'm trying to move ahead
and deep inside i wish it's me instead
my dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

i just want you to know that i've been fighting to let you go
some days i make it through, and then there're nights that never end
i wish that i could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
but still i have to say i would do it again
just want you to know


that since i lost you, i lost myself
no i can't fake it, there's no one else

-just want you to know
backstreetboys


ak was here at 7:46 AM`

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

i'm in a happy lovey-dovey mood
and it's all due to HBO
i love HBO
it shows the best shows

chasing liberty must be mandy moore's best movie like ever
plus the guy is oh so hot
with the prettiest eyes i have ever seen
and the sexiest accent ever
ooooooh
anyway that's not the point
and not the main reason i like the show
it just gives me a really nice feeling after watching it
especially the whole part about making the big gesture
i think that is so sweet
so all you guys out there
listen up!
make the big gesture okay?
the thing that will make your girl go "wow! i'm with him"
hahaha

i also got to watch bridget jone's diary
the first one
i don't really like the 2nd one
colin firth is ooooooh
hahaha
but i love it when he said
'i like you very much, just as you are'
*heart melts*
(:

well i'm happy and in a loved up mood <3
ladeelalala ladeelala
just let me live up in this cloud for a while okay
before i come back to solid ground

oh sanne...thanks for listening/typing and putting up with my ranting much love!



ak was here at 8:45 AM`

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Monday, August 15, 2005

"If I could, I would have left you feeling everything I was thinking."

.something you are just not meant to understand.

ak was here at 11:02 AM`

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cool yogi

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after :)

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before

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yummm

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my pie :)

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i took my skin test today
you know that dreaded test we had to take in pri 6?
it hurts alotalot
i have to go back on thurs for them to check
the swelling went down a bit
that's good right?
means i don't have to take that blasted shot
anyway enough misery...

today i baked a pie!
well me and my mum baked one
i made the insides and my mum made the crust
i put minced beef, mushrooms, carrots and tomatoes
and it turned out pretty good if i say so myself :)

next time i want to bake little ones
for like per person
they're so much cuter
haha

yogi was in the attic today
and i got inspired and spiked yogi's hair
it was a bit too long
but sanne...
MY DOG'S HAIR IS COOLER THAN YOUR'S!
wahahhaha

ak was here at 3:26 AM`

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photos taken when i was in melb are up

cheers!

missing you guys already :)

ak was here at 3:24 AM`

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ehhh maybe this is the picture sanne took to remind me of her...

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see the boster wear the cat in the hat hat

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dr justin seuss

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melpor selling cookies :)

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sanne took this to remind me of her *i think*

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