Saturday, September 23, 2006
i know i haven't blogger in a long time, but this week has been crazy and some...
i have finally gotten a minute to myself, yes.
anyway i have a thought that i just had to write down...
i think i should definately delete this the mintue i write this but then again, maybe i won't...
i just realised how much of romantic i really am,
don;t get me wrong, seeing couples making out and being overly touchy feeling makes me nauseous,
my i want to be swept off my feet,
i want the big gesture,
i want the romeo and juliet conflict (not the ending though)
i want to be like the little mermaid and the prince seperated by their worlds but fall in love regardless,
i want my prince charming...
and perhaps it's these high expectations,
and extreme circumstances that is needed to catch my attention...
i blame disney.
i don't think i have commitment phobia
that was the theory for the longest time...
the thing is, i think i don't want to fall in love,
i want the love that hits you,
full on. you wake up one day and you realise what you wanted was in front of you all the long.
i've thought i was in love 3 times.
all 3 times, i stood right at the edge (corny i know), but that's what it felt like
and i never jumped off the cliff.
i don't know why.
i guess the potential gain never outweighed the risk.
maybe i do have a phobia of commitment.
now i'm babbling.
i don't know what i'm talking about now.
i forgot what my point was.
i had one i swear, i just don't know what it is anymore.
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