Tuesday, March 14, 2006
i watched lord of the rings 3 the other night with eric and jen...
and this quote just really sruck at me..
"how do you pick up the threads of an old life? how do you go on...when in your heart...you begin to understand...there's no going back? there are some things that time cannot mend. some hurts that go too deep...that have taken hold"
i think if you can go back, it means you never left in the first place, your body might have but your heart is still at the point it started. you then miss out on experiences and opportunities that might ahve made you happier, more fulfilled. but then again, we would all rather remain in our little boxes because no matter how miserable and frighten you are there, whatever is outside the box might just be worse. the real break down is when you realise that you can't go back to the way things were, at least not exactly. because now there's a new reality that we all have to deal with.
there are so many memories that run through my mind...
and i wish we could all just sit down and rewind through all the heartaches
but there are just some people in my life that i don't think i'll ever have a conversation with again
and that's sad cause when i look through my picture of me with my old friends
i remember happiness, carefree feelings when we didn't worry about deadlines and projects
when grades was just a 6 letter word we dealed with at the end of the school year
when we could afford to miss classes and stay at home and play
when lectures were fun because it meant that we could sleep
when we loved wednesdays after recess (i think) and monday mornings cause we would have chapel
when we ran from our classrooms so that we could be the first in line for nasi lemak
when we would countdown the seconds to the end of the school day
when during assembly we would see how much we could slouch before being called on my the teacher
i miss the unairconditioned classrooms
the computer labs where the computers didn't work
the canteen
the hard chairs in the chapel
my leaking ceiling in palmerston
the ackward green couch
the crappy food
i miss the friends i neglected
the friends i left
the friends i forgot
the friends who left me
i wish i had a time machine...
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