something you are just not meant to understand

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now, i'm currently a freshman/sophmore at santa clara university. that has become my home away from home, but then again, i also consider melbourne my home away from home. i love being surrounded by people, even if there's no talking involved. i thank my lucky stars everyday for my friends, my singapore soulmates, my melbourne mates and of course my santa clara family. i have 16 friends which i would do almost anything in the world for and all of them are spread out between these 3 countries. which sometimes makes me sad but then there are the wonders of the internet and mediaring which everyone should use instead of skype *shameless advertising here*
i love music. my ipod is almost my lifeline. television is the source of everything good in my world. i love reading too, although i may not look the type. so basically music, books and television are my life.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

i found this somewhere and thought it was sweet
it's about younger days when the world wasn't so complicated
i edited it abit to be easier to understand
so here it is....

on monday it was my first day in school. you were the first person to talk to me. you even ate lunch with me. we have a lot in common. we talked about our favorite bands (a lot, of which, we both like) and tv shows we watch.

you're nice, maybe we can be friends.

***

tuesday you sat by me at lunch again. i found you waiting by my locker after school. you said you just got a brand new video game and asked if i wanted to check it out. i said sure. we headed to your house and played for awhile. you kicked my ass everytime.

it feels like i've known you forever.

***

wednesday was horrible. some big bully pushed me off the swing and i scraped my knee. everyone just stooed around me and laughed at the new kid. i was so embaressed, i was scared you would never talk to me again. i ran to the closest bathroom to cry, probably making a huge fool of myself in the process. some third day huh? you followed and sat down with me in the corner where my knees were pulled up to my chin and my head in my hands. i was expecting you make fun of me and call my a crybaby. but you didn't. instead, you hugged me. you hugged me and told me everything would be ok.

i might just have a crush on you.

***

by thursday, most people had forgotten what had happened. of course i recieved a few teasings here and there, but you were right by me all the way. your best friend, ryan, is in out art class. we had to pick out partner today and i was sure you were going to ask him. but you didn't. you aked me. i asked you why you hadn't picked ryan and you just laughed and said something about rather working with me.

i really like you.

***

on friday you wondered if i would like to come over to your house for dinner. i said yes, how could i refuse! you smiled and told me to come over around 6.00. the day couldn't go by fast enough. then finally, the dismissal bell rang, and i swear i practically ran out of class. while i was waiting for my mum, you passed by. just smiling that beautiful smile. it totally fits you.

i must have annoyed my mum, asking her all day if it was time to go yet. i couldn't wait till 5.30 when we would leave for your house. i learnt how to read a clock that day...although i could only tell when it was 5.30.

i arrived at your house exactly 5 minutes to 6.00. my mum gratefully to be relieved of my 'are we there yet?'s. you were sitting outside and i couldn't help but smile. you jumped up, seeming very anxious about something.

"come on," you said, "if we wanna see it we have to hurry."

"see what?"

"you see."

you grabbed my hand and we ran all the way to the neighbourhood park. you lend us towards the palyground equipment. jumping onto the little bridge thingy you said, "come on up!" i obliged.

"what exactly are we doing?"

"we're going to watch the sunset, can't you tell?" you grinned goofily and i just laughed.

"beautiful isn't it?" you said, just randomly, after a few moments of silence.

"yeah it is."

you swung your arm around me, pulling me into you. not knowing what else to do, i moved closer.

you day my name and turn to look at me.

"y-yeah?" i don't know why the hell i'm stuttering. i'm probably nervous.

"hey," you said before kissing me softly. when we pulled away you were smiling wide.

"hi," i said back, my grin matching yours.

friday, i'm in love.

ak was here at 10:41 AM`

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